Conflict Resolution and me

“I've learned one thing, and that's to quit worrying about stupid things. You have four years to be irresponsible here, relax. Work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember the time you wasted hanging out with your friends. So stay out late. Go out with your friends on a Tuesday when you have a paper due on Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink 'til sunrise. The work never ends, but college does...” ―  Tom Petty I landed up in a course that I cursorily ticked on my college application. So finding B.A. (Hons) Business Economics (BBE) was pure destiny. Keeping this serendipity in perspective, I was so sure that this course would provide me the exact path I should be on. It somewhat did, but if I were to correctly say it, I'd say my journey gave me the answer where I wanted to be, and more importantly what I wanted to be. My college offered me a plethora of opportunities that were nothing short of wonderful; which le

I was sorry that I was different. He said he loved me, but he didn't know how. Maybe he tried his best. He demanded I fight his demons for him because he failed. I tricked myself into believing they were my demons. He left and I didn't say anything. I felt like I was kind. No one bought it. The ground beneath my feet began to shift violently. Doubt began to seep. I stopped believing I was smart. The days became long. I took every relationship that had shown me unconditional love and smashed it into pieces. There was a relief though, there was nothing left to screw up. I was finally alone. I let myself cry. I stopped struggling. Everything turned very still. I thought I'd die, but my heart kept beating. It didn't care about what I thought. My heart stopped apologizing. It became quiet. I was still breathing. If I fell, I knew that I could get up. It was hard at first. I stopped fretting and started exploring. I practiced falling. I was always stuck at a question; You ca

Don't be affected too much by all the small things in life for all the small things will come and go and you'll lose focus from the big things But don't be affected too much by the big things in life for life is lived in the small things and the moments that come and go by I looked at her with happiness and not just a smile "You're my small thing I said and laughed" Forgot to mention that she's also my big thing. One day when I was listening to my friend's stories, I told him all of this big stuff and small stuff and how it affects us and ruins what we call happiness. It is always easier said than done, and After A few days,  when I was upset about something, He wonderfully converted that conversation into a poem and showed it to me. He gave me exactly what I needed at the moment and I can never thank him enough for everything. Always guiding me about studies, books, and life.  This poem means a lot to me now, for two reaso

The side effects of being me, Are even greater than the natural disaster it seems. Whatever I do, always goes wrong. When I want a chicken it turns out to be a prawn. When I shoot the basketball at practice It always goes in But when it comes to show others My experiences are as odd as huckleberry Finn's. When in the corridor I am having a talk. Mam comes up and thinks i am having a nice walk. Whenever I use a bit of slang, I get a painful slash- slap -bang. Being egoistic was once a trend But it made me break up with my best friend. My short temper makes me turn people topsy-turvy. But then it makes me ask the teacher for some mercy I am pretty good at making excuses I will make a new one if other diffuses In any subject when I share my oh-so-unpleasant views in the whole class, it becomes hot news At the end of the day when I think Everything is going to be fine And the night is going to be mine When I can think what all I did and got during the day And I

I was asked to write for my college yearbook on the topic -Wonderful experience in college.    and this is what I wrote. Going by the literal definition, 'Experience' is "the process of doing and seeing things and of having things happen to you." The first semester of my college was a whole lot of not getting things that I wanted. Not getting into societies that I applied for. Not fitting into the group of people who I wanted to be friends with. Not achieving the grades I wanted and that’s just a whole lot of experience right there. Soon, I made up my own definition of experience: "Experience is what you get when you don’t get what you wanted." My best memories in college are based on just one line: "Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better things..." (HIMYM reference) Since I didn't get into societies of my choice, I had time to explore other options available in college and that's how I