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I'm not sure what I want to be or do. All I know is that I want to live. To me, living isn't about having a big title or a fancy job. It's about enjoying the simple things. It's about feeling the morning sunshine on my face, laughing so hard it hurts, and crying to release the pain. It's about finding peace in quiet moments and letting my mind wander.  But life isn’t always sunshine and pretty skies. It’s storms that break you down, darkness that swallows you whole, and days when getting out of bed feels like swimming through raging waves. It’s the crushing burden of expectations, the fear of failure, and the lonely feeling of not fitting in. I’m tired of pretending to have it all figured out.  I’m a person, a whole, messy, complex person. I’m the quiet kid who dreams big and the friend who’s there for anyone. I’m the one who’s afraid of heights but jumps off cliffs anyway. I just want to be me, with all my flaws and strengths, my hopes and fears, my joys and sorrow...
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3 years later, what life's like?

I'm picking up my pen again, and it feels amazing!  It’s truly easy to get swept away in the bunch of responsibilities, deadlines, and the never-ending grind of our daily routines.  Lately, I’ve felt this chaos more than ever. I’ve been so completely absorbed in the busyness of life that I’ve lost touch with the things that always brought me so much happiness. I've been so consumed by my responsibilities that I've lost touch with the things that bring me joy, and it's only now that I'm starting to feel the emptiness that's been growing inside me. Life can be overwhelming, and it often demands so much from us. Academic responsibilities, work commitments, family obligations, social engagements — they all pull at our time and energy. Yet, in the midst of this hustle, I believe it is necessary to pause and ask ourselves: What brings us joy? What makes our hearts sing? For me, it’s the simple pleasures: curling up with a good book, losing myself in the pages of a sto...
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From the journal #2

- A new year special post This is a time of reflecting and gauging your progress. A time of observing the year that was through the lens of wisdom. There were times when everything went perfectly, and then, there were things that caused major disappointment. However, I am grateful for them all because I understand that the failures have taught me what success never will. My journal prompt for today- What are the stories you'll be carrying with you into 2022?
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To the stranger,

Do you imagine coincidences happening in your mind?  Meeting an old friend in the metro,  What would you talk to them about? Well, I started doing that the moment I lost you.  Looking for you in strangers, in places where you'd usually be,  where we'd usually be. Sometimes I could even feel your presence around me,  but not you. Just strange faces around me. When our beloved ones die,  It's a tragedy but it wasn't their choice to leave you. When you left me it was worse than a tragedy,  because it was your choice.  You opt to leave me. It wasn't an incident, it was a choice. One of the most painful things I had to go through,  was to grieve the loss of a person who is still alive. It changed me over time.  More than the pain, my familiarity with some very special people changed me.  So the situation changed.  I stopped looking for you in strangers.  Even if we met someday I wouldn't even probably recognize you.  You w...
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From the journal #1

 The other day, I was thinking about anger and laughter. Happiness, compassion, and laughter can bring a ray of sunshine into otherwise gloomy lives, but anger leads to rash, harmful words, and actions. However, there is a different kind of anger that is fueled by injustice and the need to right a wrong. That kind of anger is far more powerful than cynical, mocking, and heartless laughing.  And this reminded of something I had read sometime back -  " Anger in its time and place May assume a kind of grace "
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F-It list

 I have realized that I have always been an “I want to do it all,” kinda person. But there are moments when I don't want to hustle; instead, I want to lie the fuck down. Take it from someone who has consumed chamomile tea, tried meditation, and booked me-time in the calendar in an attempt of being her 'best self'. Balance isn't found at the bottom of a pricey tea or as the conclusion of a yoga lesson. Instead, it's a state of mind. And something that has really been working for me is - ' A Fuck-It list' We spend a lot of time checking things off our to-do lists, creating aspirational Pinterest boards, and pondering our next big goal, dream, or plan. Then we wonder why we've burned out. Answer honestly- How much time and effort do you put into stuff that doesn't really matter? Or activities that you think you "should" do rather than those that you really want to do? STEPS TO MAKE A FUCK-IT LIST -   Make a mental or physical list of all the t...
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Busy World

 Do you know these words?  "Lost, somewhere between sunrise and sunset, sixty golden minutes, each set with sixty diamond seconds. No reward is offered, for they are gone forever." This is so true, as the proverb says, " Footprints on the sands of time are not made by sitting down." I have been wondering about these golden minutes and diamond seconds a lot recently. These are all we need to have, to stand and stare in life. Some quiet times of relaxation and refreshment... Don't we all need them, so that things don't get on top of us in this busy world?
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